LIFE @ College

A student in school is concerned about his studies and the quality time with friends...that's all...no other botherations...he has no other thoughts and so a student at school enjoys his studentship to the fullest....

Going to the school daily....meeting with friends....chatting with them regarding each and everything of life....WE all have friends...some very close ones also....we share each bit of our heart with them....we trust them like anything....and we do really spend some time with them....on and off school....

Sometimes when I think about my past school days....I tend to get pretty nostalgic and start living those moments over again....The classrooms....the teachers....the benches....there exists a sound relationship of a student with all these....they belong to the student...as much as the student belongs to them....And now comes the most important aspect of the school life...."THE RESTRICTIONS"....there were quite a few...isn't it ???

@ school we're not allowed to do a lot of things....most importantly...bunking classes...that was a big "NO"....bringing cell phones to classes....again a big
"NO"....ahh well uniform is the other big restriction....We used to be taught discipline and mannerism at school....and so we used to enjoy every moment of the restrictions that were imposed on us....Though we never used to admit that....Many of us used to feel that there were too many restrictions....even some used to enjoy the restrictions.....

Now I'll tell you something....Life @ college is free from all restrictions and now we come to understand the joy of living under restrictions....@ school we used to break dozens of rules and make fun with a feeling of accomplishment....All those little joys then.....is a great memory now....And these memories are the treasures of life....no matter where we go....no matter what we become....no matter how we do in our own lives....but our memories are our possession....no one can take that from us....

We humans love to break the rules that are imposed on us....and now @ college..."NO RESTRICTIONS"....so it all seems too boring now....the fun element is present but in a different form....in a mature level...and we need time to get into the groove...Afterall we're just into college...as the title of the blog suggests "TEENS OVER !!!".....well that's how a boy/man feels when he's just come out of his teens....(Look at the "boy/man"...usage...cant really tell...this is the transition stage for one's life and it entirely depends upon the maturity level of the individual)

This is the point of time where a sense of responsibility comes to a boys notice....and that helps him to become a man....well maybe biologically there is not much difference between a 17 year old and a 20 year old....but yes...there is a huge gap in the mental perceptions of the two individuals.....A 17 year old is not too much concerned about his life after he is 20....at 17...he probably thinks....how to beat the other guy in class....but at 20....the same man thinks about survival strategies in this gruesome world...."Think about it"....

While @ school....a boy studies hard....enjoys with friends....to build a good career for himself....but little does he know about the real meaning of "CAREER"....while @ school, the boy has a very little idea about the coming life...but after reaching college and after getting the goal fixed he gets a much clearer picture from there....So, I'll say that there is a huge gap between the perceptions of a std XII guy and that of a college 1st year guy.....The college guy has a much clearer idea about the life he's heading to....he begins to fix his goals....and makes his preparations for the journey he has just started....a journey which will take him over to places....give him ideas...play with his thoughts, decisions...and finally shape him to be a good responsible gentleman.....(Similar for ladies....don't worry ladies)

Now this was the aspect regarding academics....Now I'll come to the other points.....gradually you'll see...how a boy transforms to a man....in a matter of few years....



COMING SOON....EARLIER PART MAY ALSO BE ALTERED

SELF CONFIDENCE...MY LIFE'S STORY...

Confidence is a very essential part of one's life. One should have enough confidence in himself so that he can cross over the hurdles that comes in his way to success.....

Now...."Success"...quite a term....how do we define it ??? Is it the takeover of a company for a corporate businessman....or is it the "coming first"...in an examination....or winning an award....Yeah may be that is success...But for me "Success" is a different story...It is something for me which would give me immense joy.....a feeling of accomplishment....where my soul would dance in the tune of "Success"....That is success for me...It can be anything...a very small thing in our lives can also bring a lot of joy....well that small thing for me is success in itself....People may look at me and say that I'm successful but my heart may not be suffice with the amount of it...or it may be the other way round....But real "Success" is that...when both people says and the self believes....


Well may be....I was carried away by the word "Success".....let me get back to the topic...."Confidence"....Well that is one more word which always betrays me....it plays with me...but never lets me win over it....My dad often complains me...saying that I'm too pessimistic....too sadistic....I lack self confidence....I always keep telling him that he is having a wrong opinion about me....But the real point is HE is absolutely correct.....and I know that.....

When I was in school....I always topped in my class....but that was not the real picture of life...I did not understand it then....But I understand it now. When a man always wins then he tends to become more and more insecure about his position....The fear of losing even once comes to his head over and over....again and again....now it is upto him to hold his nerves tight....Such persons also tend to become very short tempered....always remain angry with self and let the anger flow in any possible direction without channelising it....I was just like that...very insecure of my position.....I couldn't help doing the things which I did then....it was sheer foolishness and immaturity on my part....

I was social no doubt....and so I am today....but then I used to mix with only those people who were worse than me in studies....I had a certain jealous corner for the good ones.....(a very few though)...I used to call them jealous....I don't know whether they were actually jealous or the thing was actually a part of my mind.....I never knew it.....So, in this way I started my teens....As I progressed in my teens my quality of friends increased.....Now I had started to mix with all different kinds of people....It is by being social with all kinds of society that one can access himself as being a good or a bad citizen....My friends are the biggest treasures I'hv ever had....they are the sources of inspiration for me....and will remain forever....

My age grew and I became more and more mature.....I could now analyze different people and their differing opinions about me....But one part of me kept very very immature....that is....DECISION MAKING....All my decisions were taken by my parents and I used to listen to them blindly....One's parents are the truest guide to one's career.....that is what I felt....

But this could not continue forever....after my Xth board examination....I thought of going to kolkata for studies....and take coaching classes for the prestigious IITJEE....I gave admission test @ FIITJEE...and had a good rank there....but still I decided later to quit the idea and remain in my earlier school....My parents always backed me....and supported me with my ideas....But the fact is ....by decision making was very weak and I committed the first blunder of my life at that time....

I stay in a very small town....though it has got an english medium ISC school....but our town lacks the recourses....I could get no coaching for my entrance exams....So I studied for only my boards....and decided to take a year gap and go for coaching then.....well that was the decision I took....there was nothing wrong in it though....

We all gave our board exams....went quite good....Then the IITJEE...moderate....WBJEE....okay.....AIEEE...pathetic....Now I was sure that I'll drop a year and go for coaching classes....okay all was set....and I gave an entrance test @ FIITJEE called the FIITJEE TALENT REWARD EXAM....the result was set to come out on the 9th of June 2008.....I was waiting eagerly for the result....meanwhile it was also declared that the West Bengal JEE results would also be out on the same day....I didn't care about the WBJEE results....I just wanted a very good rank in the FTRE so that I could avail discounts....

It happened as I wished....FTRE All India Rank....156
I was delighted by the outcome....50% discounts on the course fee, Rs 15000 worth cash scholarship & a hostel benefit of Rs 1500 per month.....I couldn't have asked for more.....I was more than enough satisfied....After 2 hours or so....the WBJEE results came out.....I was expecting something around 10000 rank....or even more...the ranks came out and I scored Rank 4591.....

I accepted the result....informed all my relatives....they started giving me suggestions about attending the counselling at least.....I was arrogant...decided to stand by my decision....but again my mind fluctuated....everyone suggested that dropping a year is not a wise decision....If I get frustrated then it could ruin my career....My parents also came under the influence of other people's words....

Then I made the second biggest blunder of my life......"Can you all guess...what did I do ???"......Yes, you're correct...I went for the counselling....and fixed the targer to only the government engineering colleges....The counselling day came and went to the counselling venue.....(Science City Auditorium, Kolkata)....there I saw that govt colleges' seats were already filled.....certain good pvt colleges were left then.....My mom kept saying me over the phone....not to take the allotment and go for the coaching....

That was the 3rd biggest mistake of my life (till now)....I did not listen to my mom and took allotment for a college under the Electrical Engineering discipline.....then I came back to my home....still puzzled....whether I took the right or the wrong decision....I didn't knew it then but I know it now...that it was the wrong decision that I had taken....I couldn't help it....By then I had already taken quite a few heavy decisions in my life and possibly everything got wrong...but I was learning....

Then I decided....to continue studying for my entrance exams again....and ignore college....well that was a good decision on my part but it is too tuf to continue two things together....and this time no mentor was there to guide me....I was staying out of my home for the first time and the overall feeling for me was not a very good one....7 hours of college duration and then there were college assignments, lab assignments and all those kinds of stuff....It was getting very hectic for me....but I had no other option....I continued in the similar fashion for the next 8 months or so.....

Then I went for the Entrance Exams yet again.....I was not at all ready for IITJEE....I knew that I would ruin it....and it happened so....But I had immense faith for AIEEE and the WBJEE....I thought that I would do well in them....
Physics was my strong point....Maths was okay.....Chemistry pathetic...I didn't know half of my chemistry syallabus also.....Still I had good hopes....WBJEE went not so good....but okay....later when I checked the solutions I found out that I had made 12 silliest mistakes of my life in my Mathematics paper....It was devastating for me....I had no clue what would happen to me....
Then I went for the AIEEE exam....that too didn't go too well for me....later I realised that I had not worked enough for the exams....due to my college and this together I got jumbled up....

Then I took another decision.....Not to go back to the college, into which I had taken admission last year....I decided to go for Computer Science & Engineering....be it any college....I'll go for the best institute which would offer me computer science.....and I did that....now I'm okay with my decision....

But this decision doesn't lower the effect of the other bad ones which pushed my career backwards....all because of my LOW SELF CONFIDENCE. I had no control over my confidence level...I used to get afraid by the position I was in.... It was a hightime for insecurity for me.....and this led into many wrong decisions.....Or atleast fluctuating desicions....


I would like to give one particular suggestion to all my readers.....PLEASE KEEP ENOUGH FAITH IN YOURSELF....Be it anything....never feel yourself to be lower or meagre to anyone....always keep one thing in mind....

"IF HE CAN, THEN WHY CAN'T I ?? "

Never let anything or anyone get in between you and your esteem....FOLLOW THIS and I can assure you that SUCCESS will be yours.


Thanks...
SouKun